alone- written by miss.blondie

I'm sitting alone in my room.
Another tear hits the floor.
My head is hanging low.
and the tears come more and more.
it's impossible for me.
To be happy.

Ohh ohh ohh oh.
yeaaaaaaaaaah.

People scream outside my door.
I wish it could stop but they just scream more.
Looks like i'm outta luck.

Ohh ohh ohh oh.
yeaaaaaaaaaah.

Why am I alone? Lord please help me.
Ohh oh.
I jsut can't put it up anymoooree.
My head and my heart are so far apart.
My cries and my tears wont disapearr.
And i'm alone.

People look at me.
and say wow she looks so happy.
But they can't see behind that smile.
That i panint on my face for a little while.
I'm trying to figure things out.
The way it seams isn't always bout the truth
No it's not how it always seams!

NO NO NO!

Why am I alone? Lord please help me.
Ohh oh.
I just can't put it up anymoooree.
My head and my heart are so far apart.
My cries and my tears wont disapearr.
And i'm a-

Why am I alone? Lord please help me.
Ohh oh.
I just can't put it up anymoooree.
My head and my heart are so far apart.
My cries and my tears wont disapearr.
And i'm alone.
yes all alone.
by myself.
no one else.
just myself.
i'm alone.

UPDATE!

Heeey bloggers,
How long has it been like two months tomorrow. Ohh emm geee to longg! I have been so busy worrying about a shit load of crap so yeaah. Right now im with my bestest buddd Peeenk. We are jsut chillin. At the momment I trully feel like having a coke and ordering a large pizza and stuffing my face liekt her is no tomorrow ---> but dear god please make a tomorrow because I am to young to die. Anyways life has been different since my last blog. Mmk soo. Basicall y some more drama happend ( Duuhhhh, it friggen rides on my back like miley cyrus rides her boyfriend) and so the whole school started hating on me , but whatever. I have learned who my real friends are and all that shit that you hear in like Paris Hilton;s my new BBF. (N). But other then that... OHHH MY HOSUE SOLD! Just stes away from hapy-apy world. ( :D). mmmmmmm ohh. Curently me and my friend are working on a webshow . But considering this is an annonomous blog nuff said about that. andd uuhhhhhh. Yeaahhh. I honestly don't know wh y iwaste my life writing this gay blog because clearly n o one stops and reads it. I feell so neglected :'( . :P.
anwayss pleaseee feel free to read this anytime. I mean it only takes up half my life, psshht psshht.

WELL THERESS YOUR UPDATEEEE!!!
LOVEE YAHH
XOXO,
miss.blondie

Love? (L)

Theres only one wat two say those three words four you...
I LOVE YOU (LLL)

Kso,,
if you havn't noticed that i have bolded one, two, three and four it's either because your blind, disabled or a currently in an awakward depression stage in your life that you can't state the obvious. Well if you havn't noticed I am 100 % head over heals in love. Just as how I am an annomous blogger well.. you all knoe me as miss. blondie btu obviously theres a person behind miss blondie BUT back to my point im gonna call the guy i like Sex God and for now that is what I will refer to him as. No i know if you saw him you would absouloutly fall in love.. well maybe you would just think hes hot or something but i LOVE him. Now I have told you all how i'm moving and how I can't wait to leave and all but Sex God is like the thing holding me back. Now don't get me wrong I am dying to move and get out of Whore Land and move to Happ-apy-apy world but everytime i look into his eyes it makes me think twice of course then I realize im still in whore land and dreaming stops.
anways im off jsut thought i would let you know. This entry is deticated to : Sex God! (LLLLLLLLL)

xoxo,
miss. blondiee <3

it is what it is -

Heeey,

Jeeez it's been a while, well i guess everythings still the same. Well not everything. I have a lot going on in my life but everything just appears as a blur to me at the momment i'm just not really sure of... well.. anything. See last year at my school i was a no body, i hung out with people that wern't popular, didn't get asked out, didn't wear make up and stuff. This year im "popular" you might say but not becausee of any reason other than i hang out with people that really aren't my true friends. I'm just with them to be cool. But i don't wanna be that person anymoree. I just wanna go back to being me with my real friends and my real attitude but it's too late now im stuck like this. Im sick of hanging out weith people who think its cool to cuss there brains out people who think its cool to do stupid things im just sick of it, sick of it all and i just dont know what to think anymroe. Im sick of it sick of it all. HOWEVER, i am so releived to say that this is my last year at my reatarded school it's my last year here in Whore Ville < ----where I livee :P . I'm moving in the summer and will be going to a new school with new people question: new attitude? answer: YES! I am going to be extra careful on choosing my friends and i will not base my choice on there social status but on who they are as people hopefully when i move im not just " the new girl" but the new girl who wont classify people by anything but who they are us people. But i got like 4 or 5 more months in hell ville so.. gfor now peacee out and i really have to think about some stuff. Hopefully i will keep my blog more consistant now.

xoxo,
miss.blondie ( L )

mmmm.

Heeeey! (L)
mmm, it's been a while scince i have written in my blog. I really have no reason other than i just havn't come around to it. Wow i have a lot to say. Like most people say "life's like a roller coaster." my life used to be like that; i had my ups and my downs and my steady momments but it seams that i got off my roller coaster and lined up for a terrible one because on this roller coaster it seams like theres no ups just repetetive downs, it;s like I am now on a never ending drop zone. First I find out my parents are getting divorced, im moving to hapy-apy-apy land and my friends dont care ohh and did i mention most of them don't like me anymore. hmmm oh yeahh and my sisters a fag! Like i really don't know when im going back on the other roller coaster but i hope its soon because this one is making me cry more then anything. Alot of people call me a seck because all i do is cry these days but hey im sure they would change there mind if they could spend a day as me, being me isn't exactally the most exciting attraction at the theme park. But enough of me letting everything out.

Peace out ladies.

-Miss.Blondie <>

Dramarama!

Heeey,

it's me right now im definetly not the happiest person in the world. I have lost 2 really close friends in the past 2 days all because of stupid DRAMA if it wasn't for all this drama i would be at school right now. I have been "sick" for the past day and a half. I have been crying a lot and i just don't know what to do. Should i go to school tomorrow? Should I stay home? Should i try harder to fix things? PLease someone comment on my blog and give me an idea of what i should do because i reallly dont know what to do at this point. Tomorrow is the last day before winter holidays so i really wanna be at school but i'm just not sure if I can take all of the crap im gonna get.
Someone please comment on this blog entry and tell me what i should do.

- Miss. Blondie <33

Chrsitmas is coming (:

Omgshh,
I can't beleive that christmas is coming in 10 days! :)
im so effing exited. So idecided i would show you my christmas list.

Christmas Wishlist:

Money
Abercrombie Stuff
Hollister Stuff
Aritzia Stuff
Pink flat iron
iPod Nano Cromatic
COACH BAG! XD
wii
Gutair hero
Necklace ( tiffanys, peoples.. etc)
Pumas
More Money $)

I realize that im asking for a lot and that i probally won't get most of it but thats just a list of the things that i would really like to have :)

-Miss.Blondie < 33